Great Wall of Diapers

I think I've mentioned before that I've been stocking up on diapers. At first I would just buy a big box every time I went to Walmart. Then I learned about people getting them super cheap, and now I'm trying to stock up on them when I can get a good price.  I just realized I've been doing this for a year now, and I've been putting most of them under our bed, so I couldn't see them, and really had no idea how many I had. I decided it was a good idea to get them out and see if I needed more, or had too many of a particular size, etcetera.

Behold: The Great Wall of Diapers! That's 1,724 diapers. I counted.

The sad thing is, according to most people and their estimates, That's about half of what I need. However, I think those people are the types of people that change the diaper every time it gets wet. I mean, let's be realistic people, I don't have all day to change diapers. I mean, I don't wait till it's sagging past their knees or anything, but they pee every 5 minutes, especially when they're little. It has been a few years since I had one in diapers, though, so maybe I'm remembering wrong. I think I've done a pretty good job getting a head start, and since I've worked tirelessly clipping coupons, researching sales, and running to 5 different stores to get all the deals, Cory has graciously agreed to change all the diapers. Or he will agree to it.  I forget which one. I'm sure I can convince him. 

I've had baby on my mind so much lately. The fist 6 months or so I couldn't think of anything else, and then for a few months I was able to distract myself with hobbies, and now I'm back to thinking about her. you know how a particular time rolls around, and you're like "Wow, was it really a whole year ago that that happened? Where did the year go to? It went by so fast!"  Well, looking back to last year, I'm more like, "Wow, was it really only a year ago? It feels more like 5 years, 3 months, and 21 days!" 

I've been thinking about how I've been making all these clothes for her, and making her bedding, and having fun decorating and preparing, I have never met this child, she's not even alive yet, and I already love her so much! It's like with God, He has always loved us, even before we existed, He loved us. Even when we were sinning against Him, and hated Him, he still loved us. I love how this process so far has been such a reminder of salvation, and how we are adopted by God. I guess that's sort of the purpose of it, to imitate Christ, and to be the hands and feet of Jesus, and caring for the orphans. It's a sweet reminder. 

It's funny though, because when I get where I'm thinking about her a lot, I dream about it all the time too. And I have some really crazy, vivid dreams. I dreamed about her the past two nights, and last night, I dreamed that we finally got the call, and it was a 1-year-old instead of a newborn, which is fine with us, but I was like, "Oh no! All these clothes I've made were size 0-3 months!" Then my mom dreamed that we went somewhere to pick out a baby, and they had all these babies laying around and they were all dolled up, and some of them had lipstick on, and she kept thinking "Why do they have lipstick on?!" You know I'm going to have to do a photo shoot just for her when I get our baby! =)